Seven | Clothes (day 9)

We've gotten all the way to Day 9 of clothes month, and I must confess that I've spent very little time thinking about this whole 7 thing at all.. mainly I am just nauseous and miserable and most days I feel like I'm barely surviving. But I am very pleased with this development, as it seems like a good sign (I hope!) for the newest little sweetie coming along. My ultrasound is this coming Monday, and I'll be just over 7 weeks. It's funny being in this nauseous stage, how twisted my views of food start to be. I cannot even make myself think about those dreadful foods we ate last month. Last night someone asked me what they were and my stomach was angry with me for even naming them. During last month, it just didn't seem that hard. The food seemed rather delicious. Up until the last day, maybe, when the nausea started setting in. Now, even just imagining eating a bite of one of those sweet potato muffins that I thought were so great, makes me gag. Today I cooked a big dinner for my sister in law's birthday. It started out fun, but the more I thought about the food, the harder it got to keep going. I was making some of my favorite things: chicken parmesan, french baguettes, salad, broccoli and a new recipe for a 4-layer cake filled with mixed berries and a whipped cream frosting. When the cake came out of the oven, I was completely disgusted by the smell of it.(Sweets have always been gross to me in the first trimester, but trust me, I more than make up for that in the next two!) In fact, I was so grossed out that I briefly considered throwing all four layers in the trash and just buying a cake that I wouldn't have to assemble. By the time I was pulling the chicken parmesan out of the oven, I wondered if I had perhaps ruined my liking for it forever. So I decided I'd better take it easy in the kitchen for awhile. I'm thankful that we're doing clothes this month instead of spending, because I'm afraid we may be buying already-prepared food an awful lot this month.

I have to confess two ways I have cheated on clothes this month. Well, I had picked out maternity jeans as one of my articles of clothing, in an attempt to be comfortable during a time of icky nausea. These particular maternity jeans were a terrible choice because they have this front panel that only goes up about 3/4, so it ends up digging into the top of your stomach.. not really what you're going for when you're just trying not to throw up in the first place. So I keep the panel rolled down. On Sunday, I chose jeans and one of my two "nice" t-shirts to wear to church. I glanced in the mirror before leaving and realized that the maternity panel that was rolled down was clearly showing because my cheap-material shirt, after having been washed almost every day this month, has shrunk. SO, I decided to add a long cami to my wardrobe, calling it "underwear". Ok so that's the first bit of cheating. The second is worse. Yesterday I wore those jeans again and was continually frustrated because when I roll down the panel, there's nothing holding the pants up and I am constantly pulling on them and adjusting... otherwise they gradually slide down. SO, today I swapped out those jeans for some good old non-maternity baggy jeans. Or maybe they used to be baggy, before I grew in the tummy so fast that I suddenly started looking 3 months pregnant! Somehow I justified this whole swap thing with the fact that I'm too nauseous to deal with jeans that either press uncomfortably on a nauseous tummy or constantly threaten to fall down and cause me to flash people. I know, I should have worked these things out in July, but oh well. Hopefully this will be my last time using the pregnancy to cheat!