July is moving right along and we only have eight days left of food month! Here's something I've been amazed by during this month. I think I mentioned a week or two ago, how during this fast, God had given us a lot to pray for. That was true for that week and it has continued on and on... There are always people on my prayer list, but this month, God has just poured situation after situation into my life that requires prayer. Some are dear friends who are going through tremendous amounts of pain, and others are people I've never met.. but one way or another, God has placed these situations in front of me and I am learning to pray.
As far as food goes, we've tried some delicious new recipes: my brother came up with an amazing black bean sweet potato burger recipe that I've made twice now. They're so good topped with avocado! I've been making spinach omelettes for breakfast every morning (with avocado tucked inside afterwards), and have just about perfected roasting chickens and then making the most heavenly broth for soup. Who really needs spices anyway? Ha.
Been thinking a lot about next month (clothes!) and trying to decide what to choose for the 7 items. I'm hoping it will be difficult to choose. Here's why: I'm about 4 weeks pregnant and I'm hoping this pregnancy will continue, so that I'll need to carefully select my 7 articles of clothing to be comfortable and not clingy around the tummy (those weeks 5-9 are so icky and nauseating that even if I'm not showing yet, I can't stand anything tight. But since this is my fourth kid, I'm pretty sure by week 9 I will be oh so ready for some maternity clothes!) I'm reluctant to be excited or confident about this pregnancy because of the miscarriages we've had in the past, including two early losses this year. This is my eighth (!) time finding out about a pregnancy, so I haven't really felt like telling people about it. It feels like I've announced pregnancy after pregnancy after pregnancy... and like I drag everyone I tell into this place, only to disappoint them in a few days or weeks with sad news. And yet, one thing I've learned about myself through these losses is that it feels relieving and comforting to me for people to just know. Keeping it all private somehow seems like a harder road to me. So there it is...here we are on a roller coaster that we've become pretty used to. But Jesus is so faithful and good and He sees the big picture when all we can see is a tiny little dot.
a favorite Anne Steele hymn:
You raise Your hands to still the storms
That rage inside my head
Revive my heart with gratitude
Love quell my doubt and dread
Give me a pure and rested soul
From every fear relief
The Spirit's power and presence mine
To ever comfort me.
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