lots of learning to do

We had an eventful last week and a half. Other than Caleb getting his little tooth knocked out, we sold my Explorer, bought a new car, and closed on another little investment house. But I feel like the biggest changes have been going on inside me. I'm learning a lot lately, or at least it feels like I am. The learning process of life seems to be very discouraging to me in most cases... probably because I am too prideful to ever want to admit that I have learning to do! I have felt like a failure in a lot of ways lately. I had been praying for God to show me my sin, and isn't it funny how quickly He does if we ever ask Him to! I have been really overwhelmed with all the things I'm doing wrong..... and these are just the things I happen to KNOW I'm doing wrong.....imagine how many other things I am either oblivious to or in denial about. For one, I have allowed myself to become so busy that I've really neglected my children in a lot of ways. At the end of the day, I often feel like I just "got through" the day... constantly running to the next thing on my agenda (whether it was important or necessary or not), and dragging Maggie and Caleb along with me, without taking time to really spend good time with them. I am becoming increasingly aware of how quickly the time is passing and how little time I have before they're all grown up. Last night was Maggie's first night in a "big" bed. I went in her room before she went to sleep and laid down with her and we prayed and sang together. I realized while we were lying there how rarely I have been doing those things with her! She was loving every second of it, too. So I am resolving to spend less time stressing over things that are fleeting, and more time enjoying my sweet children! The wonderful part about mistakes and sin and all of this is that God's grace truly does cover us when we admit that we can't do it ourselves! How awesome to have such hope. I know I would have despaired by now if it weren't for the truth of the Gospel... but as it is, I can have complete confidence and hope in Something other than myself, Who has never failed me and never will!